Moving out. Housing. Summer leases. Post-grad plans. 10 yrs of school loans. No job after summer. Leaving UCSD. 3 friends got engaged. Midterms. Lab reports. Getting used to change. Friends. Life? A little overwhelming, but am reminded that God is in control always.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11
Simple blessings that made me smile today:
-mellie brought me jamba when I was studying for 6 hrs at the library today.
-Got a chance to get coffee with my lab partner & had awesome conversations
-Meaningful conversation with my roomie, Beth & she offered to get me dindin.
-worshipping with my little keyboard when no one was home today.
-saw His blessings in the simplest things.
-God providing in abundance through Sisters going through something similar to me.
-simply sitting at Jesus’s feet :)
I usually don’t post stuff like this.. ‘Marriage Videos’ , But out of all the videos I’ve seen about Marriages, this is by far the most powerful video I’ve ever seen.
It’s such a beautiful picture of God’s unconditional, unfailing, sacrificial love for us.
It reminds me of that verse,“but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. - Romans 5:8”
It’s such an amazing truth. That even when I was still a sinner, God still reached out His hands to me and pulled me out of the pit. And still, now that I am His child, I fail Him daily and yet He doesn’t look at me as a ‘failure’ rather His very own Child because I’ve been saved and redeemed by His son Jesus.This video my friends is the perfect example of TRUE LOVE. A love that comes from God the Father, given to His children, and it bleeds out in our lives.
She knows he’s not the same man (physically) that she dated before the accident, but she loves him anyway, and she knows in her heart that he loves her very much. Just like God, He knows we will fail Him at some point in our lives, we are sinners but because of His love and grace He has adopted us in His family. Yes we fail Him, but He knows deep down inside, we love Him and we desire Him more than anything. And to God, that is enough. For Him to know that we strive and we keep pressing on to Him, daily.But why does God do that? Why does He still love us, inspite of our past, present & future failures? It’s simple..
Because God is LOVE. - 1John4:8
Happiness, though a lovely sentiment, does not compare to holiness, which fixes our emotions in a posture formed by things eternal and foundational, rather than by the simple and fleeting.
Jesus bends to hear you breathe
And His tender hands are holding you tonight
And His heart is ravished when you look, when you look at Him
And oh, the endless mercy in His eyes.
Simple blessings:
-I forgot to turn in my paper this week but my professor allowed me to and only took one point off. AHH so much grace.
-I read & did the wrong pre-lab, but I have two awesome lab partners who got me covered.
-Thankful for an awesome coworker who can cover for me when I have a midterm conflicting with my work schedule.
-Thankful I have a home church I love coming home to.
-Thankful to see God’s fingerprints in the everyday ‘mundanes.’
-Thankful for my private students being flexible when my schedule goes craycray.
-I forgot to take my clothes out of the dryer, only to find that one of my aptmates did it for me and put everything into my basket this morning.
-My roomie made me cold brew coffee for the week.
-I didn’t have time to eat or cook this week. My student’s family fed me dinner and my roomie cooked for me. Mellie got me coffee.
-Feeling pretty ‘bleh’ this week but God provided and gave me the friends I needed at the perfect time.
-I taught a 3 yr old for the first time yesterday. You know what it reminded me of? I lack that child-like faith they have. They know when to ask for help when they need it. When they’re hurt, they go to their mommies and daddies to tell them. How many times have I done that with God, my abba Father? After the lesson ended, she got her treat and got two so she could give one to me. She hugged me before she left. Kinda made my day. I really wanted to break down at work yesterday but held myself together til I got to my car.
-My 7 yr old student taught me something as I was trying to teach him how to hold his violin. I kept telling him to ‘keep his hands open’ because he kept grabbing onto the violin like a block of wood. It dawned on me that this was probably how God felt. He wants to bless us with soo many things, but how many times do we keep our fists clenched with what we want and what we think we need?
-Tutored Vivian for the last time yesterday. She’s moving onto high school. 
Clinging onto His promises.
Let the healing begin. One day at a time. Thankful for accountability and safe environments where I can be completely transparent and vulnerable. Open up those wounds and let them heal.
